our plumbing is finally fixed, so that’s nice
Not great. I keep thinking about suicide as a preferable alternative to having to work a shitty day job to barely scrape by in a slow-roll apocalypse until I expire of natural causes, or possibly climate disaster or World War III. Maybe I could do some good with it like Aaron.
You cannot think about it, since such thoughts (even if true) will eat you from inside. I was like this for a while (maybe result of fasting or trying be vegan), but most probably the cause is being tired - get as much sleep as possible, reduce screen time and try to avoid disturbing news for a while - it may help.
fingers crossed things get better for you. ❤️🩹
hooray for fixed plumbing!
i mostly have dog news (no surprise there).
echo is officially part of the family as of saturday. signed the paperwork and sent it in! i’ve got her signed up for a trainer evaluation next weekend so she can get into a canine good citizen class.
i took the other two dogs (loki and jean) to a fast CAT trial on saturday as well. loki peed in the ring his first run (immediate disqualification, oops) and didn’t seem to know what i wanted him to do. kinda kicking myself for not signing him up for two fun runs instead of paying for two scored runs. i swapped his second run to a fun run so i could walk down the length of the track, and he did way better that time. the lure spooked him at one point, but he recovered, and i think we’ll do a couple more fun runs to see if he likes it enough to keep doing it.
jean absolutely crushed it! her fastest run was 9.477 seconds, which boils down to 21.58mph (34.93kmph). the slower run was somewhere between 10-11 seconds, but i forgot to write it down. she ran right to me at the end and leapt into my arms like a champ both times. she was also great around all the other dogs who were barking and yowling and generally being amped up. looking forward to seeing the photos that were taken later this week, which i’ll be sure to post over on !animals@beehaw.org. 😊
loki & jean after the trial.
echo spending her day with another rescue volunteer.
jean is heading to another fast CAT trial in a couple of weeks, and loki has a rally obedience trial coming up the weekend after that. this year is really going to the dogs. 😅
Very fun, thanks for the pictures. For whatever reason the speed of your dogs jogged my memory of skiing with my old dogs. We would skin up backcountry peaks, them with booties and leg wraps in the -20f cold. Then at the summit I’d take the skins off my skis, and the booties off their feet (otherwise they get lost), slather their feet in mushers wax, and race down the mountain. I always had to watch my speed since they maxed out around 20mph, or roughly what your dog’s clocked at.
Have a great week!
that sounds like so much fun! my little dog would hate that (she’s cold in any temp under 70F), but i’ll bet my aussie would absolutely thrive on a snowy slope.
Wow great follow up! And hey your car has a doggy cup holder!
we desperately need to swap this sedan out for a hatchback or wagon. crates are so much better for car rides. 😩
Girl you’re gonna need a bus with all that love.
I bought a second car yesterday so I’m pretty stoked on that
It’s not a new car by any stretch (it’s 24 years old) but it’s going to do a lot of work for me as a vehicle I can use for going to trails that isn’t my commuter car
Awesome! I’ve got a 2001 Subaru that I use to get to trails. Same thing; sometimes I have to walk, but at least I’m not beating up my main car for getting the kids around.
I was initially thinking about getting a Subaru but after working on a few it really discouraged me due to the level of difficulty
Head gaskets in particular suck to swap
I got lucky in that regard I guess. My mechanic told me that I got the one model of Subaru that doesn’t blow the head gasket. So fingers crossed!
Otherwise, yeah, Subaru’s aren’t easy to work on at home.
Might I ask what model is it?
A 2000 Honda CRV
Most of the trails I go to aren’t that intense to get to (though they can be sketchy enough road wise that I have to pull over and walk to the trail rather than drive) but my poor little Kia Rio just can’t take it no more lol
WOOOOO CRV
had one o’ those a while ago, 2000 or early 2000s. Only complaint is my butt would go numb on drives over four hours. Prolly coulda fixed that with a cushion of some sort, but had to get different car.
Enjoy. I hope it treats you well.
Hmm that sounds like an interesting choice. Why did you pick it instead of a Range Rover or something?
Costs was a big factor, including costs of insurance (a huge factor (the CRV is $35 to insure)) and costs of parts. Not to mention the costs (and availablily) of aftermarket stuff.
Plus I have a few friends who have them as well and they’re very fun little SUVs
Oh I forgot about insurance. But here where I live there’s a different kind of it which is extremely cheap afaik so it’s not much of a factor. And yea all of that makes sense. I’m just not a fan of SUVs I guess
I’m definitely not a fan of modern SUVs which are basically tanks (like seriously you should def check this tool out to compare car sizes)
I was also looking at smaller pickups (like 1980s to 1999) but they’re so bloody expensive right now locally.
I even looked at kei trucks (and almost bought one (they’re street legal in my state) but changed my mind when I double checked how it would affect my insurance cost and they told me they wouldn’t insure it, so I’d have to get a second insurance plan from another company and I didn’t want to go through that headache.
Bruh that insurance makes no sense. Hopefully it will die soon and finally allow people to buy cars they want
Hope everyone has a good week!
Seems like I am meeting twice a week with the chef girl on the regular now, we swap who comes over who’s city each visit. Things are going pretty well in that respect, but my life is still a bit of a mess as I can’t get effective ADHD medication because my diagnosis was private (because the waiting list for a diagnosis on the NHS is 2+ years), so now I have to suffer through being unmedicated and buy what little methylphenidate I can afford off the black market to keep myself sane for the foreseeable future, makes me feel pretty fucking hopeless.
Supremely frustrated as of late of flakey people who make plans which fall through and considering setting a boundary around that or just not doing the labor to keep them in my life. Not sure what I wish to do at this point, to be honest, and need to think on it. With that being said, I’m otherwise doing well, on the last few days of antibiotics to recover from strep. Just a few weeks out from getting the peripheral nerve stimulator put back in, assuming they don’t blow an IV or two again, so hoping that goes well and doesn’t get infected again.
You don’t deserve to have people who constantly flake out. If they are always cancelling and never initiating activities, invest the time and energy into your own well-being, hobbies, and other friendships. Best of luck with what sounds like some health challenges!
Yeah I know I typically cut people like this out of my life but knowing when it’s a pattern and not just bad luck and life being busy right now is kinda where things are at right now. I’m hoping it’s the latter but I’m leaning towards the former and I think I’m going to assert a boundary next time we plan something
Best of luck!
It’s only Monday but ok. This week started quite good actually. I’m still about to cry very often but at least I can talk to my best friend again and that’s just great. Also nothing very bad happened yet and I still can watch YouTube and TV shows all day as I always do so hey it’s already much better than the last week. Sorry for not saying as much as other people. I’m just almost completely lifeless and I’m going through a lot now so yea not much “normal” stuff to say
Hey, hang in there. I hope your week stays ok. I hope you can invest some time in yourself. Have a great week!
Lol I rarely get many good days without pain in between. It just repeated again. It’s always like this. Anyways have a great week too. Hopefully you’re at least able to have it
Legs haven’t been treating me well. Well, my muscles in general. But this last week or two has been significantly worse than usual.
Before referring me to a rheumatologist, my doctor wanted to go ahead with some of the blood tests that they might want to do anyway, so getting a CK level and antinuclear antibody test (among others, which I’m not quite sure of) done tomorrow.
Might help in figuring out quite a few things. Also might not.
We’ll have to see. Should know by Wednesday what’s up, at least with these particular tests.
fingers crossed you get some answers. 🤞
Thanks, I hope so too.🤞
All but two of the groups of cuttings I stuck in the ground last fall are looking promising. The earlier season plants are loaded with buds that I hope won’t be damaged by frosts (late or otherwise) like last year. With any luck this will be the first year getting to eat hazelnuts from my own property.
The bookshelf project is coming along reasonably well. Today I put clear epoxy into all the knots and nail holes in the original stud we’re keeping as part of the build and when that’s cured it’ll get sanded up. The boards for the shelves are in the sanding phase which is a slow, fine grind (woodworking pun ftw!). I’m finally up to 80 grit on the palm sander after 36 and 50 with a belt sander. Part of what’s taking so long is that I’m taking the time to raise the grain in between sanding sessions so I can get a finish that will impress my one woodworking friend.
The ducks are starting to feel like it’s spring, which means that they’re getting busy. That wouldn’t be a problem except that our bestest boy Sudo is extremely reactive to the act (ducks are not gentle lovers) despite my efforts to counter condition his perception of it. One of our neighbors was over when he had an episode, and were perplexed by how calm I was at what was clearly the sound of my dog dying in six bear traps.
oh jeez. we had ducks growing up and you are not kidding. i was always kinda horrified as a kid by them, despite seeing plenty of animals getting down with one another haha.
Yeah, it’s not my favorite thing about them. We keep the flock balanced to give the girls a break but it’s still upsetting and I’ve interceded on a hen’s behalf a number of times myself. One small comfort I tell myself is that Sudo fully grasps the concept of consent and can’t abide when others ignore it.
Stay strong, bees.
You got this 😎
I had been having a tough time this past month with work and some interpersonal feels. Yesterday was my birthday so I took LSD and went on a hike with my best friend. It was good to feel some of the results I’ve been getting from taking boxing class, as I was able to keep pace with my buddy for the 6 km walk. Saw some nice rocks and fungi. I went into the experience thinking about what I wanted to change in my life. Ultimately I was like, yeah I actually already had everything I need: amazing friends and plenty of opportunities for creativity And self improvement. Just gotta work on separating from the stress and enjoying the little moments :)
Oh and then my buddy’s gf made me panang curry and my wife made me key lime pie! And we watched Jennifer’s Body, a quirky horror movie from 2009
I don’t have insurance yet because my work was unclear about how to apply for it and I kept forgetting to ask. Due to that my anxiety is through the roof and I’m finding I also have sensory issues. On the bright side I’m in two DnD groups and I was able to get a used VR headset for my birthday, as well as a new desk!
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Sad, cancer
Well, my grandmother who has only ever made me feel uncomfortable and I haven’t talked to in 2 years was diagnosed with cancer and my family is likely going to expect me to interact with her or even them about their grief, but I do not grieve this person and cannot comfort them in their grief
Work has been stressful due to the social politics
Dog decided to throw up on the bed at 2:36am🫠
i’ve been there. hopefully they’re feeling better now!
Thank you! It was just the one thankfully
